i hate him!!!

i hate u so much! u r an old man with useless personality n all. i may have just thanked u, but i wanna take it back. i hate u for who u r....really hate u badly....itz cuz of u, everyone suffers, including me. i hate u, n i feel like killing u cuz u don't belong in this world. i may not be able to clean my closet, but i so wanna pack ur things n throw it away. u may call other people to clean their own closets, but u should do it urself first. it seems as though it is pointless buying stuff for u, playing with u n all....cuz u just do that when u feel like doing it. there has never been a time when u do it cuz it's ur responsibility. u know who u r, n i don't feel like saying out loud who the hell u r. u may keep praying to God, but i hope He won't help u cuz u have not tried helping urself. keep depending on others for everything, n i will pray for ur death. i know i m ur *** but it does not mean i can't hate u. who the hell won't hate u for what u hv done? i hate u n i pray that u suffer alone, n without us. i pray to be able to leave this place forever n never have to look at u anymore. the only reason i wanna leave penang is u....everytime u call, i've always wanted to reject ur call, but i'm not that heartless to do that. u say that everything u do is cuz of me but my faith in ur words is going weaker cuz of what u hv done. actions speak louder than words n though u never hurt me directly, indirect hurt is sometimes more painful. i hate u not because of what u've done to me, but because of what u've done to pplz close to me, people whom i really care about. i've tried caring for u, but it seems pointless. i don't celebrate special occassions regarding u anymore cuz u r not worth celebrating with. all these while, u keep telling me to be careful, but hv u been really sincere in giving those advices? people r dying to leave u, haven't u notice? u keep telling people to leave, but they rn't cuz they love and care for u. instead of appreciating, u....forget it, u're not worth talking about. but, still, i wanna talk about it cuz this post will show the hatred i have towards u. badminton and football used to be my favourite games cuz of u. but everytime i look at my racquet and football, i think of u n all of a sudden, those memories with u rekindle. they were sweet memories, yes, i still love u, but i jz cannot accept those things that u've done. rollercoasters and dangerous activities have been avoided by me cuz of ur advices, but now, i realise that i'm avoiding the wrong things. smoking n gambling is not ur habit, it's ur routine. try as i might hating u for having that routine, i m unable to change u. inability to change u cause me to hate u n that hatred is not going to stop....i will keep on hating u and loving u at the same time. sorry for hating u, but i think that's the most appropriate thing to do. bye...elmo out~!