Failures

I failed one of my papers this week. This is my first failure in exams and the course was Physics. It has never occurred to me that I am so weak in physics: in fact, I thought I would ace physics due to my excellence in this course during my high school academic years. Though it may seem that I took this failure lightly, I have never felt so disappointed with myself before. Determination is a key of success loses its meaning after this failure. Hours spent in tutorials, completing problem sets and studying were not worth it at all. The 48% mark which I got really dampen all my hopes and dream of being able to be in the Honour's List this semester. I found it hard to even gain my composure and confidence in writing my Mechatronics midterm paper right after finding out this failure.

I do know that failures MUST occur so that one can value success. However, the timing is so inappropriate: I was just on a verge in getting out a difficult time and I have been more determined to do well this year if compared to my previous 2 years in university. Spending more time in school, being more focussed in lectures and stayed up late just to prepare for a better than average project or design made me so tired of working this semester. This failure only made me feel like giving up: it somehow makes me feel that effort is hardly ever rewarded. This too, is true in the working world whereby hard workers are often disregarded while intelligent workers get all the attention. Intelligence are genetically driven: I doubt one can mould this intelligence in oneself. Thus, does that mean that success is also genetically driven?

1 Malaysia

People, so-called divided based on age, status, intellectual standard, height, etc etc aren't so easily divided as said. Division among people to various groups is a tedious job and we ought to just forget about these divisions and just live happily together, without any discrimination. yes, some may say one race leads the other. how true is this? untrue. each and every race has a thorn, a black sheep among them. no race is flawless. no race leads. some may also say older men are wiser. untrue. what bout women?(haha, sorry) It's rare, but cases do occur where older men have to listen to their young C.E.O of their company. N, not all old men have great wisdom. Rape, crime, etc cases do involve older generation too, sometimes. Ok, forget the junk. What I'm trying to say is that people ought to be united, despite nature's action in making some of us white, some of us black, some of us brown. Unity is the greatest strength of a nation. And as a Malaysian, I'm hoping that all races shouldn't discriminate one another to gain greater achievements. We haven't reached our greatest ability yet, because we haven't reached our goal yet: satu bangsa, satu negara. Kopitiam owners of different races do not discriminate each other. Trishaw pullers of different races never say his/her race is better than his co-worker's race. I've heard loads of Penangites who are not Chinese speak in Chinese dialects. Therefore, if we, Penangites can do this, why can't other Malaysians? Talk to your friends, regardless of their race. Discuss with them on football, badminton, movies, etc. Rent a house with them (if you have to), without worrying that their rituals may bother you. Hang out with them without worrying that friends of your own race may give you a weird look. If we don't start doing all these, who will? Just don't discriminate, it sucks. Bai bai...elmo out~!

Penang, Malaysia: My Home

Malaysia is truly an amazing place to live if political chaos does not exist. every state in Malaysia deserves positive comments esp Penang. no, being a Penangite certainly does not influence me to make such a bias comment. come over to Penang n see it for urself. there's no other place in Msia where you cn get to eat such amazing tasty-licious Penang laksa n ice kacang. now, don't brag about laksa or ice kacang from other states cz jz accept it, Penang food is definitely the best in Malaysia, like it or not. anyway, Penang has lotsa tourist attractions too but many of us do not regard it as an attraction most probably because we r too used to the beauty of Penang. yes, one may say that Penang has been regarded as a "trash land", but things r not that bad nowadays. at least, some of us hv the correct mindset n try to clean the environment ( by throwing the rubbish into the dustbin, etc ). Penang has places to hike, places to jog, places to go for mountain biking n etc. most of us do not realise this because it's become more like our routine to go for a jog or hike. therefore, it is not wrong for me to say that Penangites r far more healty than other folks in Malaysia. try asking your friends or relatives from other states whether do they exercise normally? i'm sure most of them will say that they hv no time or no place to do those kinda stuff. in Penang, people tend to eat more n don't practise dieting (which is good ) but exercise more. ok, some may say that the weather in Penang is hot n stuff like that, n yeah, i do admit it. however, come to think about it, does it really matter cz most of us r staying in air-conditioned houses ( not me, though ). living in Penang will save pplz lotsa money too. this is because the food here is cheaper, compared to KL, of course n the fuel will not cost much as the roads here r short. moreover, one can cycle or walk to their destination as Penang is not a huge state. elsewhere, they hv to use the highway, etc. n those will surely make the transportation cost to increase, thus making it harder for pplz living there to make ends meet (though it may be exaggerating as it won't really affect that much). the bottomline is Penang's the best place to live in. elmo out~!

batman: the guardian

batman is definately the best action packed movie that i've watched so far. it surpasses every single damn movie....batman is seriously incredible n those who hate it suck although i do respect the fact that different pplz hv different thoughts. bt i m unable to think how anyone could possibly hate this freaking awesome movie. joker was awesome n so was batman n most of the stuff in that movie exists n they're not fake. some pplz dont know that fact, n they claim that batman is jz like transformers: a fake. the cars, the ropes, the suit, the...everything.....is real. this 2 n a half hour movie certainly will nt bore u, unlike harry potter...sorry to those lightning-scared boy fans. those potter movies suck, n no doubt bout it. those movies r trully FAKE! anyway, back to batman, batman's great....n those who hate it jz dnt appreciate good movies. bye..elmo out~!

feelings:happy/sad

to me, there r only two types of feelings one can have n nothing in between. either we r down or we r on cloud 9, there's nthing in between. there's no such thing as hvng the highest joy. every joy will be overcome by the subsequent joy later in life. for instance, we may feel happy when we pass UPSR with flying colours n at that time, it is our greatest joy. however, as time passes n then we manage to pass with A's in SPM, this joy will surpass the previous "greatest" joy. i know, i'm crapping. anyway, what i'm trying to say is that there's no such thing as hving the greatest joy. we feel happy when:
1. we get everything, though it's impossible
2. we feel appreciated, though appreciation often are insincere
3. we feel loved, though the only people who truly love us are our parents
4. we learn something, though we never think of sharing the knowledge to otherss
5. we have something which others lack
on the other hand, sadness is kinda....gloomy n it will stick to u for a longer time. joy is temporary, while sadness, to me is kinda.....it takes a long time to stop being sad. actually, there's not a single moment in our life where we don't feel sad. we feel sad when we obtain good results while our best friend don't do the same. we feel sad when we win a tournament, bt not our team. we feel sad when we spend time with our family, bt our friends r neglected. every joy is followed closely by sadness, therefore there's no such thing as "oh, i am not sad at all"...anyway, we feel sad when:
1. we are betrayed, esp by pplz whom we really care about
2. the person whom we love don't love us, n that does not exclude our family members
3. we don't achieve what we want, although those dreams r sometimes too high
4. we FEEL that we r alone
5. we fail in everything that we do
i dnt know what i'm mumbling about, as usual...take care, God bless...elmo out~!

i'm pro-Msia

the BTN camp managed to change my perception on Msia after all, esp the government. now, i realise that being a Chinese, which is not supposedly the anak bumi jati of Msia, I should be really thankful towards the government as they have helped me so much, especially by giving me the opportunity to study abroad due to the JPA scholarship. thanks! i realise that everything the government is doing is for the rakyat's benefit n there's no one who can deny that fact. it may be true that some of the steps taken may not seem to benefit the rakyat, for instance the rise of the petrol price. the rise of petrol price will benefit us, guys....cuz if not, the Petronas company will collapse n the government will so definately suffer. who's gonna rule us then? no idea...it may be easy for everyone to condemn the government. even in our SPM essays, we often write "kerajaan patut", etc. bt, think about it, how is it possible to overcome every single problem occur when no one is trying to curb them? all we do is talk, talk, talk....but not even a single person is trying to voice out the steps to the government. pplz r only expressing their opinion on what has been done by government, bt none r trying to list out the steps that should be taken by the government. what i'm trying to say is the government is actually defending every rakyat's rights n no one should doubt it no matter how bad their steps may appear. it may appear unclear, i know, bt dn't bother....elmo out~!

malaysia: my home

malaysia is my home. malaysia is my land. malaysia is the place where i'm gonna stay. i love u, malaysia.

my talent: finding faults

i guess i'll write b4 i leave penang for kl for the BTN camp. it's just a dumb camp, held by JPA to brainwash us. fingers crossed, they aren't gonna succeed. i've always been a hater of everything, n i really mean everything. to me, everything depises me. however, there're a few exceptions of course, n those who r close to me should know who or what they are. nowadays, i'm starting to have more hatred towards everything around me n the worse part is, i often criticise them which leads to negative effects(arguments, etc). see, being outspoken isn't a good thing. haha. i've been keeping myself busy with cycling, hiking, walking, etc. gonna continue swimming when i get to toronto. lolz. the news bore me nowadays. the stuff in the newspapers r crap cuz most of them r neither good news nor news which concern us. so, why bother reading them? go ahead if u wanna read about sodomy, bribery, atlantuya, etc. people start suing each other more n more without realising that they are actually making themselves suffer due to the time n money they have to sacrifice. motorists n motorcyclists r getting more n more dangerous n the victims r mostly pedestrians n cyclists, like me. n the public transports r getting more n more useless. penang's not getting anything: no monorial, no 2nd bridge, nothing! we penangites have to suffer because of them, politicians. bloggers r now closely monitored, proving again that being outspoken will not benefit any1 in m'sia. musicians still hv no chance to make a living in m'sia as no one r supporting the local music industry. pplz say that it's the musicians themselves who should be put to blame: they r useless singers, etc. but that's not the case, they are talented, it's just that no one is making any effort polishing them. the craze for money is getting everyone mad. people r getting more selfish. more n more realise that it is true that "the rich gets richer while the poor gets poorer" based on the current situation. with the domino effects of the petrol price hike, the poor can barely survive nowadays as everything gets more n more expensive. this will definately result in the increment of the crime rate. again, the pplz of m'sia will suffer. perhaps we r getting nearer to the end of the world. maybe the end of the world does not literaly mean that the Earth is gonna fall apart. perhaps, it means that people will start killing each other, demolishing the human race. that's gonna happen.....n it's not long from now. elmo out~! God bless everyone....no matter how good or how bad they are or WERE.